Maybe you’ve noticed that I have been uncustomarily silent for the last few weeks. I haven’t blogged for almost a month. I haven’t posted on facebook as often (let’s face it, I don’t have the self-control to totally stop sharing my wisdom and opinions). I have taken a step back from my friends. And I’ve been a little more reflective at home with my family. I have done all of this in an effort to be able to hear God better. Funny, considering I don’t think I like what he’s saying.
Long story short, He’s been leading me down a path that I thought he had diverted me from many years ago. (For you alarmists – NO, I’m not having another baby!) And this isn’t the path I’ve been on. And it’s not a path that I’m prepared for. And it’s not a path that I particularly want to go down now. But I’ve seen it coming for at least 6 months. So I’ve been struggling with it. Probably better described as fighting it. For 5 months, 3 weeks, and 5 days.
But here’s the realization I’m coming to this week. This new path isn’t entirely new. And it’s not entirely bad. Actually, it’s not bad at all. It has several positives that come along with it. And I might only be on it for a period of time, before God brings me back to the path that I want to be on. Or I might actually come to want to be on this path. Or a totally new option might be laid out in front of me in the future. And if it is, I hope I come to the same conclusion I’m coming to now. That I need to trust in God’s wisdom and ability to lead me. Because I know that Proverbs 16 tells me that I can make all the plans I want to, but the Lord determines my steps. And if I commit my actions to Him, my plans will succeed because He always has the right answer.
I figure that means He knows better than I do what’s good for me, so I’m going to adopt a better attitude about it. And I’m going to go along with His idea. This time…